So...

So...Bailey is growing. He's becoming far more mischevious - and he's as cute as ever.
He got his final vaccination on Thursday...which means he can now explore the outside world. But I might wait until he can fit his collar & leash - that way I dont lose him when he runs off after a new "friend" he discovers.

My job is making me more miserable by the day. It seems I dont do anything right, nothing is ever fast enough, professional enough or up to standard.

And I am trying - I am trying SO hard.

But now I'm feeling like my effort is a bit wasted, that no one is fully appreciating that I am stepping out of my safety net and being as "lively" as I can be. I am SHY. I dont sit around and gossip all day like other people do.
I want to sit quietly, do my work and go home - but apparantly that's not good enough either.

So I guess I cant win...

I am looking for other work and at this stage - I dont even care about the money. I just want to feel a little bit excited about going to work everyday.

Is that too much to ask?

Sucky Friday

Ever gotten in trouble for something that wasnt your fault?
Ever gotten in trouble for something that was completely out of your control?
Ever been humiliated in front of other Managers by something that a) wasnt your fault and b) was completely out of your control?

Here is the scenario:

Last week I got handed a folder that I had to obtain Management Sign Off for. Which entails me lugging the heavy folder around all of the Manager's office and getting them to sign a bit of paper.
However the File that I was given was already overdue for Sign Off by TWO weeks. So I started the Sign Off process - however signatures have to be obtained in a very specific order. If you dont get one Manager's signature then another one wont sign it.

So I went to Branding...except the Branding Manager was on holiday due to the Melbourne Cup long weekend.
Right. Okay. No problem I'd try get another signature - I went to the Alliance Manager...but she refused to sign it because the Analytics Manager hadnt signed it.
Stuck at a stand still.
The Branding Manager came back two days later - and I got her signature, then the folder went to the Marketing Manager for his signature (for which I got a stern telling off because it was overdue).
Once I had obtained these two signatures I then went to the Legal Manager who REFUSED to sign it because it was now three weeks overdue.

Right. Okay. So...I cant get the Alliance Manager's signature until I had received Analytics signature so I heaved the folder up to Analytics - to be told that one of the Manager's Underlings had to review the file before he would sign it. Except of course the Underling responsible for this file was on training and wouldnt return until Thursday morning.

Lots of swearing but I patiently waited (and tried to ignore the stress and warnings from the Manager I was trying to do this for). I handed the folder to Underling One to be informed that he had nothing to do with it and that Underling Two had to review it. Gritting my teeth I place the file on Underling Two's desk under the assurance that Underling One would take care of it.

5 hours later I've had enough...I stomp up to the desk, demand my signature - which Underling Two scurries away to obtain - and then I head back up to the Alliance Manager's office to find the door locked & her in full Secret Business mode (no disturbances allowed).

I deposit the folder back on my Manager's desk. Send an email advising that:
a) That the Legal Manager is refusing sign off
b) That due to the Alliance Manager being ensconced in meetings I cant obtain her sign off
and c) that due to both of these facts I cant obtain the General Manager's signature.

I then pack up and go home.

I arrive this morning and get a stern telling off that I should have done this all last week (ummm...it was already 2 weeks overdue last week, I would have had people refusing to sign even THEN). That I need to take more effort into my work.

Apparrantly it is all my fault - even though I spent the last 2 weeks running around chasing signatures - and none of my explanations are valid.

7 hours

7 hours - thats how long I've managed to keep Bailey accident free. It would have been longer, but we went and visited my parents and Bailey got a bit over-excited playing with the other dogs.

Bailey is definitely getting much more rambunctious; he's developed an interest in human food so whenever we eat dinner we get jumped on as he investigates the new smells & aromas.
Probably much more interesting than his Eukanuba mixed with Pedigree Puppy Porridge!

His first visit to the vet went very well, and he is booked in for his final vaccinations as well as Puppy Pre-School. Let's just hope he gets better at listening by the time Pre-School starts, cant have him distracted by exploring the vetinary clinic instead of learning how to Sit, Stay and Roll Over.

Letsee...what else?
The rumours that our Office is going to be moving - somewhere fairly hard for me to get to without travelling for an hour each way - are persisting. So I'm now starting to resign myself to the fact that...well I might have to resign.
I've started looking up administrative roles elsewhere just to get an idea of what's out there. I really, REALLY hate job interviews so I'm very terrified at the thought that I'm going to have to sit through yet another one.
Without throwing up.

Ohwell...we'll see...at least I know I've got this job until at least February/March of next year...after that it's time to move office.

Meet Bailey.

He is 8 weeks old, a Maltalier (Maltese x King Charles Cavalier Spaniel) and utterly gorgeous.

He threw up on me twice on our trip home, I have had to clean up a number of smelly accidents - but that doesnt make me adore him any less.

So far we've discovered that he likes pouncing on tall grass, enjoys playing Dr Livingstone by exploring jungle territory (otherwise known as the garden) and sleeps for copious amounts every day.

He has long legs that he will need to grow into - and which cause him some co-ordination troubles at present. He often appears to be drunk or trips over his own feet when he gets hyper.

He tags along everywhere I go (unless he's exploring) so I now have a little companion who trots along in my shadow up and down the house as I organise dinner or do the washing.

He's my little man - and I'm in love :)

(P.S dont worry big man I still love you too)

something

Isnt it great when something you thought would bring you more happiness...does the opposite?

Puppies

They're cute, they're fluffy, they're irresistable.

I missed out on getting one of the most adorable puppies I have ever seen yesterday - a Maltese x Spaniel it was just...well...perfect!
It was my dream puppy in the fur!

Of course I couldnt get a hold of the people selling the litter of puppies - and when I got through to them today it was to be advised that the last puppy was being picked up by it's new owner this afternoon.

So...the search for my dream puppy (aka Bailey) continues....

1st November

Ever have that feeling that time is speeding up?
I mean it's November already! Christmas is just around the corner and then very shortly it will be 2007.

Time to prepare for the Silly Season and try not to over-indulge in the foods that are going to be thrown at me from every corner. I still have my high-cholesterol to consider.

I've already turned down a Toffee Apple. How good am I? But that was more in preservation of my teeth than any desire to lose weight.
I could justify eating the Toffee Apple by the fact that it contains fruit within it's hard, sticky exterior - but the Dentist terrifies me. A LOT.
So it's best to leave that kind of thing well alone.

One day of avoiding Silly Season junk food down...several more to go....