Perfect

I didnt feel that nervous. I slept well the night before. The day was beautiful and I have never felt prettier in my life.

I hope everyone experiences a day like this at least once in your lifetime - a day where you're so certain about something, so sure that what you're doing is for the better that the worries of every day life slip away for a little while.

You're in the moment and enjoying yourself and the people around you.

It also doesnt hurt that you're wearing a beautiful dress with your hair and makeup professionally done...

And cake! Any event with cake cant help but be good...

Out of Office

Wedding & Honeymoon in progress.....

Money and TV

This is what my life revolves around at the moment - Money and TV. Being stressed about money, where it's coming from, where it's going to and how to get a bargain.
And watching too much TV because it's free.

Neverending Weekend

I dont want this weekend to end. I've had too much good food, lots of sleep and tons of sitting on the couch relaxing.
I havent had a lovely weekend like this in a long while and I hope for more.
Lots, lots more...

Meet Zahra

The newest addition to our little family. She needed a new home because the previous owners older dog wasnt handling the new puppy very well.
She's 6 months old and a Beagle x Cavalier Spaniel.
She's trouble - but cute trouble.

Bailey and Zahra have not stopped playing once. The hallway has become a speedway for high-speed chases.
We're all sleepless from 4am toilet stops.

But Bailey now has a little sister to keep him company during the day.
And my heart no longer breaks when I leave in the morning....

Stuff

I havent posted in awhile. Not sure where to start?
What's new in my life? Ummmmmm...

Bailey had an accident, not sure if I mentioned it but he had to have stitches and wear a bandage for two weeks on his back foot.
Have you ever tried to keep a bandage clean on a dog? Talk about a physical impossibility. So he wore a plastic bag over it for the majority of the time. He crinkled when we walked.

Work is sucky at present. I've been getting home grumpy and tired and not so happy. So! I'm hopefully starting a "Copywriting" course in 2 weeks. There's also a writing job going in the Marketing department that I'm going to try and get (it involves lauding the joys of call centres. UGH).

We've stalked Nicolas Cage again because one of the managers saw him coming out of a restaurant in Lygon St (Italian food district of Melbourne). So we rushed up there and wandered around until we stumbled across the end of the world - a trashed street with crashed cars and rubbish floating around and a whole lot of cameras set up.
Once again, that's the closest we got to Mr Cage.

Went to my first collectables fair and in a long, long time last weekend - and spent all my money on some Leia and Padme figures.
The SW nerd is back in action!!

Arguments have been initiated over the wedding. I'm stuck in the middle a lot of the time and have no clue how to extract myself from this position. I just want it to be simple! Straightforward! Is that too much to ask??
Look away now if you're not interested in boring wedding details!

Dress: organised
Bridesmaid dresses: getting made as I type this
Venue: patch of grass booked (PLEASE send out good vibes for good weather)
Invitations: sent (with a lot of arguments)
Hair: at the hands of my Aunt
Honeymoon: booked (2 weeks off! Cook Islands, and a villa only 30 seconds from the beach)
Wedding Bands: one down, one to go
Celebrant: have to ask someone very nicely first
Flowers: ummmmmm
Cake: Yes Please? Someone? Anyone? Preferably chocolate?
Caterer: waiting on new Menu debuting in July
Shoes: why are they all so damn pointy??
Grooms Suit: that might require wrestling Vladdy into a suit shop
Makeup: er...yes...I might need that to hide all my stress pimples

Am I forgetting anything?? My heads too full to think too much more on it!

So yes...life is busy. Must go now and double check my list - getting panic stricken at the thought of missing something!!

*spoilers*

If you havent seen Indiana Jones by now - dont read any further.

Aliens, Inter-Dimensional Travellers....call them what you will. They suck.
So does over-exaggerated CGI sequences.
And well....I'm afraid that's all I've got.

I liked the rest of it. I had fun, I cracked a few smiles. My heart filled with pride at the first Harrison Ford shaped shadow donning his fedora.

But there are explanations for all of the slightly sucky stuff...My film studies student side is screaming out referencing the paranoia of the 1950s and the Saucer phenomenon that was prevalent in the Cold War.
Even the killer ants are a reference to the movies of that era!

"Mutt" epitomised the rebellion of the 1950s - the birth of the teenager. Who questioned everything and not just blindly followed his parents instructions.

And yes...everyone could see the "Father" situation a mile away. Or however many kilometres there is in a mile.
But it was nice to know that Indy had family - especially considering everyone else had passed through his life. Perhaps in his old age, with his tired joints no longer being able to carry him through an adventure he COULD finally settle down with his one true love.

And note: he didnt relinquish his hat. No more sequels. No spin offs...or I hope not.
A greaser would ruin that hat with all his hair gel.

Some words...

This has been on my mind for awhile, and given the recent news I thought I would share this sooner rather than later.

We are in the process of creating our wedding invitations, and as much as I'd like to send one to everyone - money constraints and stage fright issues are preventing it.

So, to those who have listened and aided me in my darkest moments, to those that have laughed and cried with me, to everyone who supports me and helps make life that little bit better, on the big day you will be in my heart.

You all helped me get this far and I would not be taking this big step without the courage and friendship you have given me.

Thankyou.

There's no Business...

We tried to stalk Nicolas Cage the other day.

He's filming a movie in Melbourne, and the film crew were set up at the University, which is about a block away from us.
The commisary tent was in a park behind our building. So we headed out at lunchtime to see if we could find anyone famous.
We found what we presumed to be his trailer (giant and bright red, with a security guard parked out the front) and also located where the filming was occurring (a non-descript university building with chain-smoking crew members out the front).

No sign of him though! Ohwell...it was fun...

And it made me a bit nostalgic about my filmmaking history looking at all the crew running around...do I miss it? Or the pressure or stress that comes with filmmaking? Ummm...I'm not entirely sure...

You're all clear kid...

It is benign, non-malignant and harmless. It can hang around in my system and everything.
It's just a lump.
Have to get it checked again in 6 months but that about wraps the medical drama up.

I'd put everything on hold up until the moment I got told the magic words...so now it's back to planning and living my life rather than waiting with baited breath.

Even though I knew it would probably amount to not much, there was still that niggling little voice going "maybe..."

So...dinner to celebrate tonight, and attempting to try on Wedding dresses tomorrow...

Not nice

That was not fun.
Results back next week...

Soft Tissue Density

I went to the doctor to get something checked out. It resulted in me needing to get an ultrasound, the doctor's reasoning?
It's probably nothing...But....
They found a soft tissue density.
I now have to go and get this soft tissue density tested.
The doctor's reasoning?
It's probably nothing...But...

On top of all of this my shin is turning all shades of black and blue and my stress levels from work are sky high...
So this is not really something I need right now...

But here's hoping it's probably nothing.

Water Skiing Accident

Crutches are hard to use.

I started this week feeling tired of work, grumpy at always having to be there and having no chance to be sick as I have no back up. No one else knows how to do my job. I have to be there every Wednesday - come rain or shine.
Or at least thats the way it feels, I've got no escape. So after all this building frustration I gave in and booked a time with my Team Leader to discuss these feelings on Friday morning.
But fate stepped in on Tuesday evening.

I spent the evening cooking dinner, emptying the dishwasher - all that usual stuff. Except I left the dishwasher door open.
And some water got spilt in the kitchen and wasnt cleaned up in time.
So as I headed in there to finish the dishes, I slipped in the water and my right leg went crunching into the dishwasher door.
Vladdy got home and witnessed me crying in pain and bundled me off to the doctor.

Nothings broken, just a really bad soft tissue injury. But it's the worst pain I've experienced in a long, long time. I can barely walk.
So I couldnt go in to work today.
And it's a Wednesday.

Funny how fate works that way?

Certified

I'm now a certified First Aider. Well nearly - the certificate's in the post.
I spent the day practising bandaging, breathing air into a dummy and singing "baa baa black sheep" (long story).

I've decided that this is a good skill to have as I've witnessed two fires (and called emergency services two times) in the space of two months.
Question: If I've reported fires twice this year, will I be suspected of arson??

Anyways. If you need some first aid, I can help!

So...

I cried at work yesterday. I had to go and hide in the bathroom.
That's the first time I've done that in nearly 2 years.
I wanted to walk out of the office straight away - nothing is worse than going back to the depression I once had.
But I got angry and wrote several emails to the people in "Power" demanding that changes be made.
I've been assured that within 2 weeks one system will be fixed and working - and that within a month the other problem will also be fixed and working.
I'll see.
If the tears come a second time then I am definitely not going to be hanging around...

He was...

...only a month older than me. I never knew that. I liked all of his movies, and thought he had a great smile.

I just feel it's sad and unexpected.
And he was my age. Which also makes things a bit scarier.

Childhood

I had a wisdom tooth pulled this morning.
It's reduced me to a state of childhood, I've woken up from a nap cranky.
I can only eat soft food, so am having fish fingers and mashed potato for dinner.

If you'll now excuse me I'm going to go and watch cartoons....

Another year...

Another year...another set of resolutions to let fall by the wayside.

But no. That's not entirely true. I am trying to improve myself and follow through with everything I set down in paper...'cause that's one of my resolutions. To keep up with my journal entries - and hopefully also my blog entries. I signed up on Facebook too, so we can add that to the list of things I have to remember to update!

Life is busy, but I want to make the effort of documenting it. So that I cant forget.

My first act in this little resolution was to go out and purchase a new journal. For the one currently tucked away in my drawer is nearly 2 years old. It contains a lot of tears within its pages, the heartbreak expressed in messy scrawl. The result of crying so hard you can barely write straight.

For the moment I want these sad words shut away in a box. Only to be viewed again when I want to read them, and not sitting there reminding me every time I open the journal. Daring me to look back at who I once was.

I'm not afraid of them so much as ready to move on, that person who cried herself to sleep every night surfaces only very rarely now. She's faced her demons, accepted them and defeated them.
She only exists now in the pages of that tattered little journal.

So a fresh new journal for 2008 and my new life. Bound in a beautiful deep blue and teal patterned material....